Searching for the sea of destiny with our 'thoughts raised high' & nothing but blue sky (for today at least : ) .
Dolphin, "manna/breath of life"
What do you live for?
What gets you out of bed in the morning?
Have you ever lost what you hold most dear - have you ever lost 1/2 your sky?
I have. I didn't realize it at the time. I shut out the pain of that loss for 30 years. I was 4 1/2 years old when it happened. Dad left for work one day and never returned. If he had died it would have made it much more simple. Severe brain damage is definitely a death, a very complicated death - how do you grieve when you are suppose to be happy that dad's alive?
Good question. I'm still working on the answer over 40 years later. I remember crying one time over the first 30 years following dad's accident. In the last 10-12 years, there have been times that I cry daily. The emotions can be intense, waves of raw feeling pour through the once impenetrable wall within - a wall I am learning to construct consciously, a wall my body built to keep away the pain that made me long for death at a time when I was too young to articulate what I was feeling.
My inner journey was prompted by painful feelings that refused to stay buried in the depths of my being. These painful feelings began to surface and instead of running from them and looking for relief in the outer world, I questioned them and searched inwardly. Feeling this pain was my initiation.
It has been over 10 years now since my inner journey started and the dolphin has been at my side teaching me to breath through the pain and reminding me to take time to play.
As our guide in week one of our year-long journey and in the bitter cold of winter, the dolphin helps us remember to laugh and play along the way and is a powerful reminder of our greatest essential life-giving power - breath.